Wednesday, March 05, 2008
i dunno why sometimes when i'm troubled and people ask me if i'm ok, i don't feel like whining, not cos i don't trust them/like them, it's just somehow i automatically feel better and don't see the need to whine anymore. take yesterday for example, colleen mgsed me asking if i'm ok and i was like yeah, even though i did have a couple of worries on my mind. maybe i just need to know that people do care about me, or maybe it's just that having people like her around makes everything i hate about life right now a whole lot more tolerable. thanks colleen. (:
met manda on tuesday for dinner and waited so darn long for her! turns out she was queueing to buy some brownies and there was a really long queue and demand>supply. haha. and it wasn't just any brownie, it was the brownie that cheered us up when we were stressed out in school! it's P.Osh, i think it's a local brand and they tried selling their brownies in school for a while last year and manda and i were just crazy about them! haha. we bought them whenever we could and were so upset when the drink stall aunty said she wouldn't be selling them anymore that we bought 2 brownies instead of our usual one that day. haha. it's amazing how sweet things can make your life a whole lot sweeter. (:
anw had a really good chat with manda. I LOVE YOU MANDA! (: though i have to say we're both as ignorant about relationships as each other. haha. well i guess you learn along the way, to me there isn't a definite wrong or right answer. and we kept saying how much we miss school and stuff. i'm looking forward to going back to school more cos i miss school then cos i want my results.
gosh why is it so hard to move on with your life?
cos the future doesn't seem very exciting and you just wanna hang on to the good times.
ok i'm going crazy answering my own questions.
anw i've sorta decided what i wanna do if i get good results or bad results. so hopefully God will let me know if it's the right path He planned for me by giving (or blessing) me with whatever results i deserve.
it's amazing what an apple can do to your complexion. i've been eating a lot of unhealthy stuff lately and if i don't go home for dinner it means i'll be out getting zero veggies in my diet so naturally my complexion got pretty bad. it's enough to make any girl feel conscious (or vain haha) so yesterday i took an apple to work for lunch and today my complexion is so much better. so much so that i took another apple to work with me today. haha.
sometimes i wish bf and i had the same taste in movies, music etc. we have zero common interest it's amazing how well we get along. haha. but as a result it's getting increasingly difficult to come up with things to do together. like last saturday under weiqin's recommendation i wanted to visit the singapore museum and see the greek exhibition but bf wasn't interested. and i hope weiqin and manda wanna watch step up 2 with me cos bf doesn't want to either. i'm not complaining just wishing. bf's still the best. (:
and why is it that you can complain but i can't. why is it that i can listen to you complain day after day but you can't do the same for me. why do you always change the subject.
a few things happened to me on friday and they just made my life a little more exciting. haha. ok they weren't anything fantastic but with my days like a routine it certainly does change things a little.
first of all my parents sent my maid back to indonesia and we aren't getting another. so after almost 19 years of being looked after and spoilt by a maid, i finally have to stop being so spoilt and ignorant about everything. i even have trouble remembering simple things like making my bed when i wake up and not leaving things in the sink thinking someone will wash up for me. gosh it's a wonder how pampered i am. i don't even know how to iron. well my new year's resolution is to learn how to iron so i guess this year i'll finally stick to it. haha.
secondly i found out why i'm so free at work! at somerset anw. cos the guys there don't want me to do anything tough. and their definition of tough is stuff like pulling out files and packing files into boxes to send to the warehouse. GOSH. and i was packing this stack of papers in order of their claim numbers and writing down their claim numbers so it'll be easier to retrieve the files afterwards and ash (a guy who works with me) was like "erm this is not tough right?" i said no but in my mind i was like are you freaking kidding me?! this tough?! then why didn't you guys just hire a guy?!
and he doesn't allow me to help zhen jie (another guy who works with me, he's from sa but i dunno if he knows i'm from there too we hardly talk to each other haha) put the files back on the shelves after they're returned cos yes he thinks it's too tough as well. come on i know i'm a girl but i'm not that pathetic. i won't shun this kind of saikang i've been doing it all my life. let's see i've scrubbed floors with blue house comm, cleaned out the drama room as props and costumes manager, been a part of LOG COMM which was ultimate saikang... i think my cv for doing saikang is tremendous. haha. ok but i'm amazed at how nice the guys are there. maybe i look like some tai tai (i suddenly miss regina) who can't do this kind of saikang. ash was saying that ever since i came he has an extra workload, to think of stuff for me to do. haha. see how free i am.
some idiots at work complained to roy, our supervisor, that zhen jie and i were slacking and reading papers during work. screw them it's not like we don't wanna do work, we have nothing to do. but at least roy was nice and understanding, he even told us to fake a little when people came to our area to get files. haha.
i was telling qiu yesterday how i have nothing to do at work and i dunno why they hired me. and qiu said maybe it's cos they are under-utilising the funds given to them so they hired me to use up their funds so that it'll show that their funds are being put to use and they'll continue being given the same amount. gosh i hope that's not true cos that's just retarded.
and thirdly after work on friday i saw my punggol eye candy at the lrt station! (: i think he's a sec2/3 marist boy. gosh i'm such a paedophile haha. but he's just horribly good looking for a 14/15 year old. i used to see him on most mornings last year on my way to school but i haven't seen him since i stopped going to school during the A levels period. haha. it's amazing how your eye candy can make you feel so high. especially when you aren't in a very gd mood. haha. i rmb one day last year i was in a pretty bad mood and i went to the sc and the first person i saw was my ex eye candy (still eye candy then) and i immediately felt damn high and in a better mood. haha.
i forgot to top up my card over the weekend and i didn't bring any money out with me cos i alr bought my lunch so i was stuck at the lrt station on monday morning for a while. i tried borrowing money from the aunty at the shop at the lrt station but she refused to lend me any. i was so pissed off with her i kept habouring thoughts of vandalising her shop with paint or something the entire day. and cursing her that no one will ever offer her help when she needs it in the future. i'm sorry i was seriously pissed off. thank God this other woman i asked probably gave me all the coins she had if not i would have gone home and called in sick.
sometimes i wish relationships weren't so complicated. even as an outsider looking in. are you being a bad friend for findng it difficult to feel happy for your friend when he/she's attached cos you feel they rushed into it? or not saying anything then regretting it later when they break up soon after getting together? how do you know it's meant to be or just the heat of the moment, where in the chase everything seems so perfect and you feel saying yes is the right thing to do. is it better to really think it through or learn from the heartbreak itself? who do you actually listen to, your head or your heart? if only there was a definite answer for these we would definitely avoid a lot of hurt.
big girls don't cry by fergie is such a popular song for people feeling emo these days. i chanced upon a few blogs/friendster accounts just now with this song up, even i have the all important line on my friendster account.
it's time to be a big girl now
and big girls don't cry
i hate being so emo sometimes and crying over the slightest things, like i have no control over my emotions. when i was younger i promised myself i would never cry over a guy but i broke that promise countless times already. this song (plus still) really does give me the strength to stop crying and just pull myself together. so yup that song is like my personal motto. haha.
and no i'm not feeling emo now i'm just reflecting cos i'm very free (again). stephen didn't come to work (again) so i have nothing to do (again).
results on friday! i'm torn between wanting my results and not wanting them. i know i did badly.
i dunno why sometimes when i'm troubled and people ask me if i'm ok, i don't feel like whining, not cos i don't trust them/like them, it's just somehow i automatically feel better and don't see the need to whine anymore. take yesterday for example, colleen mgsed me asking if i'm ok and i was like yeah, even though i did have a couple of worries on my mind. maybe i just need to know that people do care about me, or maybe it's just that having people like her around makes everything i hate about life right now a whole lot more tolerable. thanks colleen. (:
met manda on tuesday for dinner and waited so darn long for her! turns out she was queueing to buy some brownies and there was a really long queue and demand>supply. haha. and it wasn't just any brownie, it was the brownie that cheered us up when we were stressed out in school! it's P.Osh, i think it's a local brand and they tried selling their brownies in school for a while last year and manda and i were just crazy about them! haha. we bought them whenever we could and were so upset when the drink stall aunty said she wouldn't be selling them anymore that we bought 2 brownies instead of our usual one that day. haha. it's amazing how sweet things can make your life a whole lot sweeter. (:
anw had a really good chat with manda. I LOVE YOU MANDA! (: though i have to say we're both as ignorant about relationships as each other. haha. well i guess you learn along the way, to me there isn't a definite wrong or right answer. and we kept saying how much we miss school and stuff. i'm looking forward to going back to school more cos i miss school then cos i want my results.
gosh why is it so hard to move on with your life?
cos the future doesn't seem very exciting and you just wanna hang on to the good times.
ok i'm going crazy answering my own questions.
anw i've sorta decided what i wanna do if i get good results or bad results. so hopefully God will let me know if it's the right path He planned for me by giving (or blessing) me with whatever results i deserve.
it's amazing what an apple can do to your complexion. i've been eating a lot of unhealthy stuff lately and if i don't go home for dinner it means i'll be out getting zero veggies in my diet so naturally my complexion got pretty bad. it's enough to make any girl feel conscious (or vain haha) so yesterday i took an apple to work for lunch and today my complexion is so much better. so much so that i took another apple to work with me today. haha.
sometimes i wish bf and i had the same taste in movies, music etc. we have zero common interest it's amazing how well we get along. haha. but as a result it's getting increasingly difficult to come up with things to do together. like last saturday under weiqin's recommendation i wanted to visit the singapore museum and see the greek exhibition but bf wasn't interested. and i hope weiqin and manda wanna watch step up 2 with me cos bf doesn't want to either. i'm not complaining just wishing. bf's still the best. (:
watchin u;
at 5:36 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
and why is it that you can complain but i can't. why is it that i can listen to you complain day after day but you can't do the same for me. why do you always change the subject.
a few things happened to me on friday and they just made my life a little more exciting. haha. ok they weren't anything fantastic but with my days like a routine it certainly does change things a little.
first of all my parents sent my maid back to indonesia and we aren't getting another. so after almost 19 years of being looked after and spoilt by a maid, i finally have to stop being so spoilt and ignorant about everything. i even have trouble remembering simple things like making my bed when i wake up and not leaving things in the sink thinking someone will wash up for me. gosh it's a wonder how pampered i am. i don't even know how to iron. well my new year's resolution is to learn how to iron so i guess this year i'll finally stick to it. haha.
secondly i found out why i'm so free at work! at somerset anw. cos the guys there don't want me to do anything tough. and their definition of tough is stuff like pulling out files and packing files into boxes to send to the warehouse. GOSH. and i was packing this stack of papers in order of their claim numbers and writing down their claim numbers so it'll be easier to retrieve the files afterwards and ash (a guy who works with me) was like "erm this is not tough right?" i said no but in my mind i was like are you freaking kidding me?! this tough?! then why didn't you guys just hire a guy?!
and he doesn't allow me to help zhen jie (another guy who works with me, he's from sa but i dunno if he knows i'm from there too we hardly talk to each other haha) put the files back on the shelves after they're returned cos yes he thinks it's too tough as well. come on i know i'm a girl but i'm not that pathetic. i won't shun this kind of saikang i've been doing it all my life. let's see i've scrubbed floors with blue house comm, cleaned out the drama room as props and costumes manager, been a part of LOG COMM which was ultimate saikang... i think my cv for doing saikang is tremendous. haha. ok but i'm amazed at how nice the guys are there. maybe i look like some tai tai (i suddenly miss regina) who can't do this kind of saikang. ash was saying that ever since i came he has an extra workload, to think of stuff for me to do. haha. see how free i am.
some idiots at work complained to roy, our supervisor, that zhen jie and i were slacking and reading papers during work. screw them it's not like we don't wanna do work, we have nothing to do. but at least roy was nice and understanding, he even told us to fake a little when people came to our area to get files. haha.
i was telling qiu yesterday how i have nothing to do at work and i dunno why they hired me. and qiu said maybe it's cos they are under-utilising the funds given to them so they hired me to use up their funds so that it'll show that their funds are being put to use and they'll continue being given the same amount. gosh i hope that's not true cos that's just retarded.
and thirdly after work on friday i saw my punggol eye candy at the lrt station! (: i think he's a sec2/3 marist boy. gosh i'm such a paedophile haha. but he's just horribly good looking for a 14/15 year old. i used to see him on most mornings last year on my way to school but i haven't seen him since i stopped going to school during the A levels period. haha. it's amazing how your eye candy can make you feel so high. especially when you aren't in a very gd mood. haha. i rmb one day last year i was in a pretty bad mood and i went to the sc and the first person i saw was my ex eye candy (still eye candy then) and i immediately felt damn high and in a better mood. haha.
i forgot to top up my card over the weekend and i didn't bring any money out with me cos i alr bought my lunch so i was stuck at the lrt station on monday morning for a while. i tried borrowing money from the aunty at the shop at the lrt station but she refused to lend me any. i was so pissed off with her i kept habouring thoughts of vandalising her shop with paint or something the entire day. and cursing her that no one will ever offer her help when she needs it in the future. i'm sorry i was seriously pissed off. thank God this other woman i asked probably gave me all the coins she had if not i would have gone home and called in sick.
sometimes i wish relationships weren't so complicated. even as an outsider looking in. are you being a bad friend for findng it difficult to feel happy for your friend when he/she's attached cos you feel they rushed into it? or not saying anything then regretting it later when they break up soon after getting together? how do you know it's meant to be or just the heat of the moment, where in the chase everything seems so perfect and you feel saying yes is the right thing to do. is it better to really think it through or learn from the heartbreak itself? who do you actually listen to, your head or your heart? if only there was a definite answer for these we would definitely avoid a lot of hurt.
big girls don't cry by fergie is such a popular song for people feeling emo these days. i chanced upon a few blogs/friendster accounts just now with this song up, even i have the all important line on my friendster account.
it's time to be a big girl now
and big girls don't cry
i hate being so emo sometimes and crying over the slightest things, like i have no control over my emotions. when i was younger i promised myself i would never cry over a guy but i broke that promise countless times already. this song (plus still) really does give me the strength to stop crying and just pull myself together. so yup that song is like my personal motto. haha.
and no i'm not feeling emo now i'm just reflecting cos i'm very free (again). stephen didn't come to work (again) so i have nothing to do (again).
results on friday! i'm torn between wanting my results and not wanting them. i know i did badly.
watchin u;
at 6:31 PM